Im missing her for every second..
beind in this cold turkey thingy is really shitty..
ive lost my contacts and stuff,
cause ive thrown my past away,
and ive jumped off the plane called violence,
to try to get myself in the state call peace,
but it was too early to have jumped..
cause ive fallen miles away from my initial destination,
and landed on this little town called Miseries And Sorrow..
and now im walking the road of regret,
to get myself to this land called peace..
how'd i wish to have a gun,
a bullet,
a pillow,
and an empty room..
its an instant solution to my 'instant-filled'[maggi and stuff] life..
and it could get me to the land of peace,
with a high price to pay..
is it worth it?
should i take an express train named s*****e,
to get myself to this land?
should i stop walking and just lay down to rest eternally?
or
should i keep walking even if my legs were bleeding?
and now ive just met a guy named dilemma..

what am i to do?
WHAT AM I TO DO!!~
my fake smiles and cheerful masks dont really work no more..
ARGHHHHHH!!~~~~

I LOVE YOU,
THAT'S IT..
IM BEEN IN FREAKIN DENIAL THE WHOLE TIME..
NOW THAT IT IS OUT,
IM A LITTLE RELIEVED..
CAUSE NOW I KNOW,
MISSING SOMEONE IS LOVING SOMEONE..
AIN'T THAT TRUE?!!