Hey My Friends,
i feel so freakin damaged,
so defective in every aspect of mine..
my health,
my social skills & my "love" life..
well,i guess im too young to settle down,ey?
but i dont really wanna do any sinful things,
i dont really know wads the next point in my life,
what is my next destination?
well,who knows?..
anyways,talking bout my health,
my arms and shoulders are still freakin sore after 2 days of rest,
damn "warm up"or should i say workout,
really worked on my muscles after a year without any fitness workouts,
cant even raise my arms to a 90 degree angle..
also,im making a stand against myself to quit on my smoking habits,
i know its hard,but ive gotta press on..
a little pressure goes a looo~ng way..
hah..well,im starting to cough here and there,
and my throat hurts as its dry cough..
so damn irritating,
cause my throat kinda itches after every cough..
~*hais*~,
what a way to live a life..

And now about my social and "love" life,
to Natasya,
im sorry that ive got to dissapear,
its not that i dont like you,
it is because i still like you that i need to stay away,
we can be friends,
but the whole day sms-ing you and all,
frankly speaking,kinda brought my hopes up,
cause the reminisence of those feelings towards you still lingers around me...
so,to not get my hopes up anymore,
im backing away,
fading into the backgrounds and try not to stand out from the crowd,
furthermore,if you were have to move on,
i dont really want to be the one wrecking a relationship like some people you might remember..
haha..well,i missed you and stuff,
but i dont want to be an extra..
so,be good,
be happy,
hope you will do well in your poly life
and one last thing, smile always..(:D)

To the other Natasha,
if youre reading this,i DID love you,
but i cant right now,
cause its just me,
its hard to love again right now,
and im just too broken too be taken by another one right now,
and im hoping my frens are the cure to fixing this torn and tattered
piece of thing that you may call a heart..
so for the loving stuff,
im taking myself out of the game till i get myself healed up..
for now,i just need to get the help of those people i call friends to heal me up,
and to make me know and love the person that i am and gonna be..

So,yea,thats pretty much it,
im gonna go sign out for now,
anyways,do enjoy this song i updated on my blog,
its called 'Shes The One' by Robbie Williams..
bye~..

P.S- I Dont Know Why,
But I Cant Stop Looking At My Phone..
What The Hell Am I Waiting For???