The Pain,
The Excruciating Pain,
its getting deeper..
deeper den it used to be..
deeper than what others had made me feel before..
the pain of thinking about her..
i know that ive said the last few posts that,
ive stopped writing about her anymore..
but the feelings towards her,have been growing..
stronger and stronger till its affecting
my health and my social life..
she acts as if she wants to rid me from her life,
but when asked,she says..
"no",
"taktau"or "dunno",
"whatever u want to think"..
im plain confused about all this,

and secretly,im actually a pessimist when ive got to
think about myself..

so,it all leads down to me having those
heartburns & heartaches..
luckily there were new escape routes
for me to turn to about all this problems..
and pains..thanks to Nabila[Najib's],i kinda cooled down

after we chat about the problems i had and stuff..
i kinda needed that..
that someone to lend a listening ear..
its like she was trying to pull the worst out of me..
well,i think she got it and i would advice her to stay
away and to never call me when
she sees me around anywhere,cause im not myself now,
and i need to crawl back to the back of my subconscious
mind to heal,
while i let the other me take over
this shell called a body for awhile..