I dont know why,
i still cant stop thinking of her..
even till i dreamt about having a good time with
her yesterday,even though i know that it would so
freakin impossible to happen anymore..
why cant i just let go of her..
i know when i have fun,i kinda tend to forget
these stuff and all,but when they leave
me alone even for one minute,
these dilemma?these problem?
they tend to force their way into my mind..hais..
i know there is a fine line between hate
and love,but this is really not hate..
then is it love?
i dont kno,uve made me laughed,
uve made me cry,
uve took out the best in me,
and uve taken out the worst in me too..
i dont kno,i dont kno,
I DONT KNOW!!
im sooo freakin stressed out..

well,im pretty much a loser..
nobody cares what im feeling inside..
they pretend to care..
and love in her pretty much doesnt stand a chance with her to me
cause she practically hate my guts..
probably even the sight of me really irks and disgust
her the worst way possible..
guys,dont blame her,dont u guys ever blame her,
its my fault for not taking really good care of her
and not really keeping a close eye..
im soo darn gullible..
even myself,the most patient of those
notorious bunch,couldnt think about

anything else..
i know that im not rich,
im not a someone,
im noone..
a nobody that only has his heart left to give..
i dunno.i just feel like dying..
SHIT,
i dont want to be that suicidal me again,
it sucks being like that..
ive just gotta make all this feelings explode
out of me some how,
the love,
the hate,
the sadness,
the dissapointment,
the anger,
the joy,
the mixed feelings inside,
and sort the emotions out,
to keep the love and joy..
im soo emoing right now,
FUCK!