Hey Sammy!!
Im back from my temporary state of being dead..heh
well,u kno wad,i didnt eat at all yesterday,i wanted to save money and all
so i can pay back some people i owe money to..
and when i got back,i forgot to eat..ahahah..seriously,
i forgot about eating..so now,to make up for it,im eating a bowl of
mee goreng or fried noodles which was in the fridge..didnt kno
when it was last placed there..but wth,its still nice to eat,
and beggars cant really be choosers..i just reheat them noodles in
my microwave..microwave is really a great invention,freakin hell,congrats and thanks
for inventing the mirowave whoever u are..haha..

i had a dream last night,it wasnt actually a dream,i was more
to a nightmarish kinda thing..well,the start was great and all,u kno why?
bcause i was with her,and we were happy,however,
a few moments after dat,all that happiness starts to crumble down..
my faithful bros left me for trying to get a shot at wooing her...
she felt soo wanted that she left me in the dark..
suddenly i realised that i was falling from a freakishly huge building..
everywhere i looked at,noone was around..
and i woke up after dat..seriously,it was freakin scary..
hais,no point hovering around that thought right?
i feel so alone,i dunno why,i really do feel like im born
to be alone..hais..and im feeling as though im getting crazy
or something,my mind is all jacked up to the last memories i could ever
remember..and all those memories are all so important to me,hais..
Well Sammy,i just feel exhausted,lonely,soo~ down...nobody
cares about this freakin loser,im like a germ in the dumps,people dont really
want to get near me cause they may fall sick,people
dont really want to get to kno me,because they may die kinda thing..
i kno i used to be an ass the last time,but cant u guys just give me break?
ive changed i tell u..
even Megat said this to me"Shahzli ,aku tengok kau macam laen ah,
macam kau tngah sengsara jer..kau ok tak?"and my reply was just
a faint smile to reassure to him i was fine..hais..i feel like i am
a nuiscance,even if i have problems,i sometimes cant tell my bros,
ill try to handle it alone..well,if its to be,
its the end for me..or maybe,its the end OF me..
hahaha..im not suicidal,just a little thought of it doesnt
hurt,rite?