Hey Sammy!!
im back from my trip to Simei..
and u kno wad,it wasnt all that bad,had a great time with Firdaus,aka
Fir Robot..it was kinda tiring walking around that area,its freakin huge,like a
shopping center kinda big..bigger than westmall..ngahaha..

but the main thing is dat,i applied to a course down there..it was electrical engineering,
the same course that fir is taking..actually i wanted mechanical engineering
or some sort,but he told me that its freakin packed with all the Mats..

i wouldnt want to be fighting arnd all day in class would i?lol..
nope,not gonna do that,cause priority wise,my studies
is much more important rather than getting into all this mess
again..being what i was last time,really disgust myself..
well,ive changed,thanks to 'her'..wouldnt be what i am now
if i were to continue on my ways..ive really changed,
which was making me a little proud of myself..hah..
hey,thats what she would usually say,the 'hah'..lol..
im not making fun of her,i just find it cute for her to
be using that..im serious..

U kno wad Sammy?this is so annoying to me,i cant quit thinking about her,
i kno~,im not gonna make this blog a tribute
for her,but seriously,it really bothers me right down to the
core,thinking about her,missing her and all that,knowing that
i stand a slim chance or a not at all of getting her back..
dat is really bothering me,seriously..
have u never felt this before?like ure missing this
girl that u think and feel that she is really 'the ONE',
and all u can do is think about her and not do anything else..
i kno dat ure a machine,and u cant feel anything else,i mean feelings,
but seriously,it sucks being human,but i need to be grateful
for being alive,everyone has a purpose,a part to play,
not being grateful is like questioning his authority to judge..
i realli think that she is freaking hating me,dat is why i come to
the conlusion where i, Shahzli , has no freakin chance in getting myself
a second chance..what do u think Sammy?am i right or am i right?hahaha
WHAT?!!~
u think i should continue on?
never say die?
i mean,never say give up?
but ive tried to do everything,or so i think..
im scared,i kno i love her,but what if i got rejected cause
shes scared that ill be bursting out again?
i dunno,im really scared,seriously,im no sissy but,
i think i'd lose it if i were to get the R word..
Hais,i dunno what to do,why doesnt she tell me straight wether i should
chase her or not..*hais*..
itd be great if i could read people just by one glance..
Living is like a chore,hais..
if it was a piece of paper,i would have burnt it to a crisp..
if it were to be a story book,id be re-writing all the stories
to my own liking,and it would be like a fairytale..hais..
Oh God,why do u hate me soooo much?
Dont u think u can lighten my burden abit?even if its going to
be just for a bit,i would be very very grateful..
hais,ill try to be the best that i to be grateful..

Well Sammy,i think i have to shut down soon,i talk to u tomorrow,aite?

goodnight..