Well Guys,
today ive seen that my services are not needed by anyone anymore..
i feel like burying myself into the ground and to be poured cement over it,
just keeping myself in the dark,away from the outside world..
hais,i dunno,i just feel that way..
i think i wont live long enough till my early 20's..
seriously,i cant take the pains in life anymore..
im not trying to be suicidal or anything,but seriously,my life aint important,right?
hais..well,writing about my life down here ain't really that important right?
i doesnt make changes around my life or anyone elses..
its just words based on some loserific guy..
all ive tried to be was to be faithful,even from
the sidelines,but i see u wouldnt want me
there to keep an eye on your wellbeing..ur pretty and all,
that is why i aint gonna just let u out of my sight,
cause the moment i close my eyes,
those guys around me would be jumping on to you
for all the wrong reasons,im chasing you not because
of ur looks,but ur behavior before u did all this stuff,
that was what really attracted me to you in the first place
..looking at myself,i know im a loser,
im trying to make the difference to my life through you,
but it all comes down to being pushed aside,
not knowing where to go,where to turn...
so ill stay put,ill stay wherever i am,so when u need me,
ill be right there,sitting,sleeping,living at the very
same spot you left me,and only for you..even if i know there
is not the slightest chance of us getting back together,
i'll be waiting till you return...
ill take a bullet through my chest,my head,
my everything for you..im never gonna be angry for the things you
have done to me cause i am still in love with you..
being faithful is kinda hard cause its just like how the saying goes,
"we need two hands to clap",
and you're not a willing party..
ill forgive you for the mistakes you have done to me,
and i hope you can do the same for me..
if you're reading this,
i cant really express to you how deeply and madly in love
i am to you,so,ill just say this,ill love you till i die and
i would wait right here,watching you move on
hoping that you would come back,even is its never going
to happen,ill just stay hopefull..